you know,
i thought i stopped emoing.

seems like i was wrong

a heartbreak makes you realise what is important in life, and when you experienced it, then think back to what you had seen as important before the heartbreak. and you suddenly realise that really, you were nothing, nothing at all, in the grand scheme of things. life is just a series of events, that is all, and you have no real power over it whatsoever.

you just thought you did.

do an ostrich impression
put up a facade
envelope youself in feigned ignorance

oh fuck. guess wad?

i lost my links and tagboard. not tht they are very active anyway. ohmyfoot.

!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!~

got tht smile off the stupid screen. it was irritating. ok it is. one stupid smiley face smiling at u like nobody's business. wad the hell made me put tht in the frist place anyway?

crap.

ggrrr. ignore me. im just emoing. realrealrealreal badly. and its making me have a headache. ggrr.

and i forgot all about the year5 subject options. ah crap.

shit.

i was just wondering,
if i disappeared one day, would my absence be felt?

ah now i feel like banging my head against the wall to stop the bloody headache im having. argh damn.

im in a good mood though im having a headache.

this week has been quite ok i guess. other than some stuff. like noticeboard and keith the great.

got back english compre test. 8/25 :( but i got 21 for summary and i think thts very high. heh. got back geog test too. i got 21/25. yay. and i got 18 for chem prac. yay.

so for now. ive got 2 "A"s for ca1. and i think i can get an a+ for maths. yayayayayay :D

and today was speech day. quite ok i guess. the mrt ride to and fro were both damn cool la. haha.

i carn believe how some pple can be like sooooooooooooo petty. for goodness sake la, na de qi fang de xia. ooh hanyupinyin like some pple :D haha. anyway, back to hte main point. u suck la. i mean seriously la. omg. i carn believe i actly... argh forget it. lets not talk about it. bleah.

and tmr is gng to be the first ever saturday in year 2007 whereby my whole family, meaning MAMA PAPA KORKOR ME AND HUGO, will ALL be at home. yay.

ah finally chnged my skin.

decided to change to a happier one. heh.

decided tht there was no point in putting in sad emo stuff or wadsoever into a blog. why remember sad stuff right?

so i shall only blog when im in a happy mood.

yay.

and mass display is OVER!!! :D

At this time in your life you feel like 'giving up'. For every time you have tried to build up your hopes and dreams something has come along to burst the balloon. You may feel that, at this particular moment in your life, there seems to be no chance of fulfilling these dreams but you are so wrong. You are the sort of person that can influence any situation, that is - If you don't give up. So consciously make the effort... You have that inherent power to succeed.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

Unacceptable restrictions have been forced upon you and this is resulting in severe frustration and stress. You are looking for independence and consequently you shy away from any restriction and avoid obligations of anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressure and want to escape from it so that you can obtain what you need, but unfortunately at this particular moment in time you lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.

The tensions and stresses that you are experiencing at this time are, you feel, beyond your capabilities or your reserves of strength to cope with. You feel inadequate and in a constant state of anxiety.You are attempting to escape from this situation into a secure environment in which you may be permitted to relax and recover, free from outside interference.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

quite cool hur. ha. shall read bio and slp at 10 tonight. ha.