horrid week.
horrid mood.

school sucked. there's 6 tests next week. i don't want to go to school.

i burnt my saturday away by going to curl. i was really reluctant to go, but since i signed up for it, it's something i committed myself to so i went anyway. switched groups to be with jolene or else i will seriously rot and die. it was ok i guess. except for all the waiting and waiting and waiting. me and jolene were supposed to take care of joanne. we were rather o.O at first cos it's like erm me and jolene. probably 2 of the more coldblooded unkind mean people there are in school. lol.

random: jolene saw some kids running around in the field and wanted to kill them.

the group we were in were made up of us and a few theresians (pronounced there-sians) and one nyjc siao zha bor (shes called mad, short form for madelene). it was rather interesting listening to the theresians gossip. a lot goes on in girls' school. lol.

i resolve to study a little bit of econs today.

im starting to doubt myself and i what i did. the cold war ended, i lost something. i don't know what, but i just don't feel good. it's like, there's this little voice at the back of my head nagging at me.

some other stuff happened, i guess it's not convenient to mention it here. but what i want to say is, i never ever discriminated you or any other at all. if you know me, you know i only discriminate against stupid and inefficient peoeple. i never cheated you. i just trust my friend more. it's one or other. either i "cheat" you or i "cheat" her. i chose to shut up. i have no say in this so whatever either one of you told me, i just listen and keep it to myself. i don't want things to end up like that. but since it alrdy had, i guess, we all just have to go our own ways. you want to end just like that, what can i do? all i can say is, we had happy rounds around the track.

i'm sorry if i didn't handle the situation properly.
i'm sorry if what i did, or rather did not do, hurt you.
i'm sorry, but i treasure her more than i treasured you.

i need a break. from this. from that. from everything.