i think it's really over (:

like finally. i've been avoiding the issue for far too long and now, after talking to hj, ly and qy, im feeling loads better. it's like a huge weight off me. maybe there really wasnt much of an issue, maybe it was more of a stupid cowardly way of doing things, shying away from the responsibility that i had to bear for the consequences. but now that ive gotten things into the lights, rearranged my thoughts, straightened out my feelings (yes sj, i HAVE feelings), i realised that it was just me worrying and thinking too much. maybe it became a habit in due course. i mean it's like so long ago. now i'm feeling stupid for not confronting this whole thing earlier. it had always been a barrier, and it somehow just made me steer clear of certain other issues and feelings.

life goes on and im going with it (:

and u knw wad, im not living in self denial. i'm more of trying and wanting to just keep that place for mistakes in other pple's judgement. a judgement based on "it's a guy thing". i cleared the issue, but it doesn't mean im ready. and by believing wad i want to, it makes things so much easier. cos i dun wanna lose any friends. and yes i do suspect, in fact, i suspected it long long time ago.

and jerome shunjie and weiliang, im so sorry, i just have to reject all 3 of you. we know each other so well. it will be damn weird to you know? haha. i've learnt. OMG THIS IS GAY THEY ARE GAY!!! you shld hv seen them on the mrt -.- especially jerome. damn lame.

i think it's rather ridiculous for us to have to run for half an hour after a bloody more than 8hours of lessons. tired leh. and so much hw ):

ok i shall go get some stuff done ):

i like a good complexion :D

ah im in a good mood now :D