listening to emo songs and emoing inside an air-conditioned room during a warm and humid night with a friend can be good.

its a break from being high.

this week has been a really busy week. damn freaking busy. ok maybe not damn freaking busy. but busy. have been sleeping at unearthly hours since last saturday. the number of hours i slept since then is like 25 hours? tht's normally what i sleep in 4 days? i mean saturday! hello? its a weekend. supposed to be 12 hour sleep.

been chionging thinkquest. the past week has been nothing but thinkquest. so its all finally over on wedsnesday cos we finished it by then. happy day. ah well. what can i say? we put in lots of efforts. at least two of us did. the rest. oh well, can't judge. i'm just like oh so god damn please with their efficiency. serious. deeeeeeead serious.

but i dunno. tough as it may be, tiring as it may be, the end product is sth im really proud of. i mean first website from scratch and all. took me damn bloody long to figure out the layout errors and stuff. and computing language isnt easy to understand. have to be damn focus and meticulous. one less <>

then weds had to study for econs test. ah well. it wasnt easy. if given more time... no ifs. there never should be ifs. do it and get over it. shall just wait for the test to be returned to us and i'll see how. at the very least, i did my best and if don't do well? what can i do? study harder lor. that's what chao muggers would say.

ytd was my cousin's wedding. was damn tired. waited for the food until i wanted to fall asleep. and i made an exception and played wiht my niece. but she was really cute la. one of the cuter kids i've seen. it says something ok. jasvin never say kids are cute. haha. it was a simple wedding. just an act of respect and politeness to treat relatives and friends. the dessert was nice. lol.

today. school was mundane. pc was an adventure. i was trying to explode by covering my mouth. i almost imploded. it was so difficult. but now i'm very proud of myself for having tolerated for like an hour of stupidity. my tolerance level must be improving.

had bbq just now. quanyi's father dunno wad so we invited also lo. and the squad's sense of punctuality has reached the extreme. an hour. its horrible. bbq was ok. more like a buffet then bbq. felt rather out of place but it was ok after while. and i still dunno which one is quanyi's father. and it was damn entertaining listening to jerome talk about stupidity of a particular someone.

and there was a particular cat who was there with us. and junwei fed it marshmallow and it didnt want. waisiang fed it fish and it wanted. then waisiang fed it fishball and it didnt want too. so after tht waisiang just disected a leftover fish for the cat. and apparantly fish have tongues according to waisiang. i nv knew tht.

went home after tht and reached home at 11. haha just nice.

closed myself in my room with the laptop and emoed. i realise i always emo when im alone in my room. unless im sleeping. and tmr im gna be at home ALONE THE WHOLE DAY! save me. sian. im just gng to emo from my room to the living room to the toilet to the kitchen to the dining room and back to the living room again. sian.

i don't like what im going through now. everything is so routinely routine it sucks.

走在人挤人的走道我问了自已
没有爱情的人是否会长命
那些电影常常让人感觉甜蜜
但是我不相信
坐在没有人的角落我又问自已
究竟应该继续还是该放弃
没有人能了解我现在的心情
想看你想躲你难以决定
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
坐在没有人的角落我又问自已
究竟应该继续还是该放弃
没有人能了解我现在的心情
想看你想躲你难以决定
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
能不能够让我再说我爱你
还是你已不想听
能不能够把你彻底的忘记
我是真的搞不清
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
只要你再相信
我们会轻轻地靠在一起

i like this song. its 靠近 by 李圣杰. very nice. if you want, nudge me on msn i send u.

ok back to emoing with my non face-to-face friend. lol.