you know,
i thought i stopped emoing.

seems like i was wrong

a heartbreak makes you realise what is important in life, and when you experienced it, then think back to what you had seen as important before the heartbreak. and you suddenly realise that really, you were nothing, nothing at all, in the grand scheme of things. life is just a series of events, that is all, and you have no real power over it whatsoever.

you just thought you did.

do an ostrich impression
put up a facade
envelope youself in feigned ignorance

oh fuck. guess wad?

i lost my links and tagboard. not tht they are very active anyway. ohmyfoot.

!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!~

got tht smile off the stupid screen. it was irritating. ok it is. one stupid smiley face smiling at u like nobody's business. wad the hell made me put tht in the frist place anyway?

crap.

ggrrr. ignore me. im just emoing. realrealrealreal badly. and its making me have a headache. ggrr.

and i forgot all about the year5 subject options. ah crap.

shit.

i was just wondering,
if i disappeared one day, would my absence be felt?

ah now i feel like banging my head against the wall to stop the bloody headache im having. argh damn.

im in a good mood though im having a headache.

this week has been quite ok i guess. other than some stuff. like noticeboard and keith the great.

got back english compre test. 8/25 :( but i got 21 for summary and i think thts very high. heh. got back geog test too. i got 21/25. yay. and i got 18 for chem prac. yay.

so for now. ive got 2 "A"s for ca1. and i think i can get an a+ for maths. yayayayayay :D

and today was speech day. quite ok i guess. the mrt ride to and fro were both damn cool la. haha.

i carn believe how some pple can be like sooooooooooooo petty. for goodness sake la, na de qi fang de xia. ooh hanyupinyin like some pple :D haha. anyway, back to hte main point. u suck la. i mean seriously la. omg. i carn believe i actly... argh forget it. lets not talk about it. bleah.

and tmr is gng to be the first ever saturday in year 2007 whereby my whole family, meaning MAMA PAPA KORKOR ME AND HUGO, will ALL be at home. yay.

ah finally chnged my skin.

decided to change to a happier one. heh.

decided tht there was no point in putting in sad emo stuff or wadsoever into a blog. why remember sad stuff right?

so i shall only blog when im in a happy mood.

yay.

and mass display is OVER!!! :D

At this time in your life you feel like 'giving up'. For every time you have tried to build up your hopes and dreams something has come along to burst the balloon. You may feel that, at this particular moment in your life, there seems to be no chance of fulfilling these dreams but you are so wrong. You are the sort of person that can influence any situation, that is - If you don't give up. So consciously make the effort... You have that inherent power to succeed.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

Unacceptable restrictions have been forced upon you and this is resulting in severe frustration and stress. You are looking for independence and consequently you shy away from any restriction and avoid obligations of anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressure and want to escape from it so that you can obtain what you need, but unfortunately at this particular moment in time you lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.

The tensions and stresses that you are experiencing at this time are, you feel, beyond your capabilities or your reserves of strength to cope with. You feel inadequate and in a constant state of anxiety.You are attempting to escape from this situation into a secure environment in which you may be permitted to relax and recover, free from outside interference.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

quite cool hur. ha. shall read bio and slp at 10 tonight. ha.

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

i shall not post any emo stuff cos im feeling relatively high now. haha. and im making a fool out of myself in front of hugo. haha. which is ok. because nobody is at home. made me emo a while but i got high after my dinner. HAHA.

and i mean really really high.

cos i started talking and laughing to myself. damn. stress is getting into me or sth har? HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

anyway. sports day today was ok i guess. the crowd control duty was BORING with capital letter B capital letter O capital letter R capital letter I capital letter N capital letter G. until the refreshments started. and then we collected ezlink cards, handphones, wallets, mp3, spectacles and watches. haha.

and we got chrysanthemum tea and milo and pepsi :D

and the sun was shining brightly i was frowning. ok not funny. but i had my PURPLE umbrella :D and the environmental conscious mean SCs threw the cover away cos i left it there and moved up to sit :( NONONONO EMO STUFF. nvm. no cover open umbrella easier :D haha. damn im optimistic :D haha.

and then a bunch of us went back to school to do the special performance. not really much done, but at least we have a start. and i realised weiliang is like damn talented. haha. and me and jolene fought. HHAHA.

and then went home.

and i went to wash my leg cos it was freaking dirty. so i put soap on it. and i forgot to wash the soap off and i wanted to walk out of the toilet. and soap is slippery. so i almost fell. but strong me used my strong arms to prevent myself from falling by grabbing the sink. yay. so i din fall. or i wld hv hit my head against the toilet bowl and died (CHOY!) then the world will be sad and everybody will be depressed. but fear not! cos im still alive and kicking and typing and making myself higher and higher :D HAHA.

and hugo is smelling good because he just bathed :D and i need to go shopping tmr.

SHOPPING LIST
1) dog food (hugo needs to eat)
2) dog toothpaste (hugo has healthy teeth to bite :p)
3) dog antiseptic cream (hugo hurt his tail T.T)
4) dog chocolate (hugo likes treats)

ahaha. doggie shopping.

:D

shall go prepare my u now and watch tv :D bwahahhaahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

bwello!

im in a good mood now, cos i dun think that time of the month will clash with my 2.4 tmr :D yayayayayay :D

then i can aim for an A instead of the usual C ive been getting the last 3 years due to... well you know. haha.

chem test today was ok i guess. la test too. ah wdv. i always say they are ok and they turn out to be crap. bleah.

shall go study geog now. hahaha. im a hardworking girl :D

A for 2.4 :D or maybe a B will do. HAHA.

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ok im not in the right mind now. heh.

K Na Ca Mg Al Zn Fe Pb H Cu Ag

yay. i finally memorised the reactivity series. i swear i din refer to type the above. heh. but thts about all i can rmb. wad react with cold water react with steam or wadsoever, i carn remember. and seriously, if not for the test, i wldnt even fucking bother myself with those irritating stuff.

ah cool. feel my love for chem.

anyway, physics test last week was sickening. goh was stinking. yah cos i so happen to stand near some stinking bamboo pole. irritating.

and fancy ytd was a bloody hell waste of my time. it rained. yah it RAINED CATS AND DOGS AND RATS AND SQUIRRELS AND LIONS AND TIGERS AND BIRDS AND CAR RACES. and so pple were making a whole lot of noise. and it was seriously irritating me, jo and ly. and hl. yah. ggrr.

i was emoing by the time the bus came. and emoed all the way till i was walking home and heard some interesting stuff. haha. then i cooked instant noodles for me and my brother and watched tv.

oh and i ran 2km ytd. did 50pumpings and 50 crutches :D jasvin trained :D is tht how u spell? lol.

and today was relatively ok.

woke up at 8. ate my breakfast walked hugo. did my la essay which i think is kinda crappy but i carn be bothered. studied for chem. went out to eat lunch and durian :D yay. finally i get to eat my durian :D and then went to andy's hse to take gao zhi and my water bottle and i asked him to wash his full u cos it was hanging on the window with all the badges. hes a dirty little boy. daphne doesnt discipline him. and then came home to study chem and then ran 2km and did 50 50. haha. its for stress relieve :D

oh and i woke sijie up. HAHA.

ok shall go bathe and then do my jian bao and then the t-shirt and then take the photo for sijie.

AHHHHHHHH MY SUNDAY!!!! :(

im a happy girl :D

cos i did pretty well for my tests :D

i got 33 for my chinese. finally i dun pass by 1 mark :D yay
i got 19 for my maths test when i tot i was gng to get maybe 15? cos i wrote e2y instead of e to the power of 2y. so it was half mark gone there and another half mark for sf. heh. nvm im still satisfied :D
i got 18.5 for my geog test :D which i seriously tot i was gng to fail. cos i din hv much stuff to write. and everybody used like 2 pcs of paper and i din even use up 1 -.-

and it isnt exactly very encouraging for mr leong to think that i will fail :( he said i slept in cls. but i "slp" is during physical geog la not even human geog. plus i dun slp. i only close my eyes. but i DO listen.

ah wadeva. i did well for my test :D and i finished my geog hw which im sure many pple wun do. heh.

shall go walk hugo one more time adn then study for physics.

1 week without blogging. and tada. im 16.

ah well. so tuesday was my birthday. and it was also the day tht my periodic emoing started. maybe its pms. or maybe its just erm a phase. lol. anyway. was moodswinging pretty badly these few days. all for no reason. maybe there are reasons. just tht i refuse to acknowledge them.

mass display was crap ytd. ok yah so fine there was improvement. yah but so? improvements made on a broken promise. doesnt sound very nice does it? where the hell was our free saturday? bullshit. yah bullshit.

and then last night 3 nocutrnal friends of weiliang went to watch mr bean. so me jolene and hj went to tm to eat play time crisis but we played hse of the dead instead and then watch mr bean. in which we sat the bloody front row which resulted in sore necks.

a show worth watching for $5.50. but not $9.50. haha. i got a ruffles packet u see. haha. and then hj got safra card. so jolene and him paid only $8. haha. singaporean traits ah. haha.

im supposed to be studying physics now. but i carn get into the mugging mode. the paper is just in front of me, and for every word i read, my thoughts just sway. and theres mass display and goh trng all the way until 6 tmr. tht is crap.

damn. july where are you?