i feel so relieved and relaxed. finally. maybe i should have done so earlier then there wun be so many problems. at least its all over. or at least i hope so. many may not approve of what i have done, but i guess its not up to them to decide whether its wrong or not because they arent exactly involved. they dunno how i feel. just because i dun show, doesnt mean im emotionless or neutral towards this whole fiasco. its my life and i will choose how i live it. i know i did what is best for me, and hopefully for those around me. this whole thing involved too many pple who shouldnt be involved at all. i guess i have to say sorry. but well, lets all just get on with life the way we want it to be, and the way it shoud be.

i hope my harry potter comes tmr.

and im aching all over.